And so a while I ago I realized that I loved you in my own way and from a distance, whatever that means. And mostly it means that I relate to you, in my own head, differently than I relate to anyone else. I'm not sure I can describe it but when I see your name my inbox, it triggers a sort of mystical emotional connection that is unique to you. As I've told you before you do touch something in me that no one else does. And for that, I'm very grateful.

Which doesn't trigger anything or require anything; it just is. And I'm very comfortable with that and I've always believed that you would understand all of that. That I can love you for who you are and how you make me feel without worrying about what else I do or don't know about you and that the distance doesn't matter and that there is a bit of pain involved .

It just is what it is and it's just about us.